I figured that I really have no time to do my precept. I've decided to keep the questions there and then work on the bible markings first. I'll do the rest after my school, but I'll continue to go to the class the absorb new insights and knowledge from the class and join in the discussions. I came to this is because I dreamt of not doing my precept homework. {-.-"} I guess my stress level is at its all time high.
Although I did not really do my homework, I thank God that He provided me opportunities to work on Sunday School Camp and mission trip. In fact, I think I'm doing inductive learning through the camp game, which is 65% complete. I intend to get it done by tomorrow. With God's grace, my China student cancelled because he has something on and it was postponed to Wednesday after precept. It means more time to work on the game and rest! But it also spells three consecutive days of working with the boy.
I begin to feel the pain of teaching. The concern you have for students and they don't acknowledge or appreciate it hurts. After yesterday, I've decided to just not be so nice to my PSLE students and let them reap what they sowed. Perhaps that's what God wants me to learn too: to not be ultra-kind lest I'm taken advantage of. I don't want them to demoralize me and then I'm not able to teach them well.
Anyway, after teaching yesterday I felt quite demoralized. So I abandoned the thoughts of studying at Geylang-East library and headed home. I spent about 2hours awake, and then after dinner I decided to sleep. It was about 7.30pm. I was supposed to be studying but I went to sleep. However, thank God for His mercy, I woke up on my own at 3.30am. I washed up, grabbed something to eat and started my class. The whole thing ended at 8.30am, an I slept for another 2 hours before another class (supposed to be one on Sunday and another on Monday). Thank God for seeing me through. I'll will end it on 9th Oct 2011. This is good because I have 3 days spread over 2weeks to work on my assignment before the online discussion for the assignment. I guess I'm not doing any fellowship with anyone on Sunday till I've finished my school assignment.
I also thank God for seeing me through Junior Program and anything that's church related. I'm glad I'm able to serve and learn. God give me priviledges to serve Him is an honor that I dare not take, yet thankful for His grace and mercy upon me. I pray that I'll never put Him aside that is lower than number 1 in my life.
I realized that after every breakdown I'll be thankful. I'm probably thankful that God gave me an opportunity to breakdown so as to feel better (stress-reliever). I find it hard to share with anyone about my pain, drawbacks and many things that makes me feel so, so tired. Whenever I think about other people who suffers a lot more than me, I feel that mine is just insignificant and have no right to complain about it even though it's so painful.
Never mind. I'll just continue to do my stuff and buy more books for my birthday month. :D I just want to dwell in God forever.
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