I'm discouraged

Every saint will be discouraged. Be it pastor, elders, teachers, etc; all will be discouraged and I guess my discouragement is now.

I have things I need to work on, so many things it's like multiple bubbles coming out of my head. I wasted hours on games yesterday and at one point I was telling myself that I deserve the relaxation, at another I felt that the time could've been spent on better things like sleep.

Perhaps my discouragement comes from lack of sleep, or a disorganized life. Yes, I'm still working on organizing it and even though it has improved a lot, it's still not enough. Time and time again things on how to work better or create better results just occupies my head. I'm so scared that once precept classes kicks off next week, I'll be more drained. Then again, it could've been an unproductive spiritual growth that caused these negativities. Two weeks of not going to precept because one is holiday while another is orientation.

Perhaps a 15mins reflection on what I want to achieve that day will help.

It's not good to think now because mind wants to rest. I'd better work on resting in the train later. I need God's grace on songs selection too (yes! It's not done and the worship is tomorrow!) •.•