Today, my first student is my only p5. She has gotten a really bad grade for all her subjects and I only teach her English. Though her English is about 60%, it's a drop from her previous papers.
What disappoints me most is that when setbacks like this comes, she keeps saying that she doesn't want to live. Not only that, she declared this morning that she doesn't believe Christ died for us, even though she's a new catholic convert.
I'm was thoroughly speechless. In persuading her to stop thinking about suicidal thoughts by saying it brings the wrath of God (obedience) and the more you think about it, the more you'll do it (logic), she still continued her sinful ways. Her belief is shallow and as I refer back to the parable of the sower, she reminds me of those seed that was on a hard ground, and the sun consume them all (Matthew 13:5,20)
I feel the urgency to witness to her because she said the bible is not true. Or rather, she doubted the content of it. Then I replied her: "If you do not believe, why did you convert?" Obviously she did not know how to answer because she did not reply me. She has to self-examine her faith. I'll introduce Sunday school camp after the poster is created.
Basically her session today is complaining about life. She even said that my lesson is boring and such. I was just wondering why she keeps verbally upsetting me. :( it's ok, I'll still pray for her. She just couldn't get rid of the sinful habits.
Talking about sinful habits, I did one sinful one yesterday. My brother was vain and he wanted to wear his latest Ben10 shirt to sleep. In front of my mother and him, I blurted out this really bad comment: "你穿那件新的衣服是给周公看啊？" wahhhh..you have no idea how bad I felt. I feel so guilty and stuff because some sinful habits still resides in me. It's bad. I immediately pray for forgiveness and ask God to help me acknowledge these things but not put it in my figure of speech. It does reflect what kind of Christian you are! -_-
Anyway, thank God for Saturday. I remembered yesterday that I did not update anything about my lappy. My lappy is alright, just that I am quite dumb to notice there's a locking mechanism for iPhone's earphone. so no damage spent on any repair.
Probably I'll try not to teach P5 and P6 English. To me, they're boring. I guess I rather go and find out certain solution for certain question. Love to solve things and problems; probably why programming and flash works for me.
Alright, I may not go YAF today because PSLE students again. I'd better inform my mentor that I'm quite pack right now. But I'm hearing that God is whispering me otherwise. pray pray pray!
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