ok, I must say, whenever I have nothing much to do, the God related thoughts just keep flooding my mind. You know, the best way to find out is to ask to the One, the King of kings, and the Lord of lords. When it comes to here, I just get really despondent - because I was more innocent than I am now.
Whosoever therefore shall humble himself as this little child, the same is greatest in the kingdom of heaven. (Matthew 18:4 KJV)
As I recount how innocent I was ten years ago, I started to feel really curious: How do I keep the innocence I had decade ago while being mature as advised and instructed in the Proverbs? I can still remember how I talk to God as a Father, and thoroughly pour every pain and suffering to Him, and to tell Him my anxiety as a teenager....basically anything I could think of. As a matter of fact, I had no problem striking a conversation with Him as and when I feel like it.
So why is it so hard now? I yearn to be a kid in front of God. Like whatever that has happened a decade ago. I find myself struggling, and yet I have this thought as an adult. How to humble myself like a child? I do pray that someone will guide me.
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