God's grace = God's love = exhibition of love

I thank God for His divine intervention. I believe He knows I'm struggling and is still trying to get rid of bitterness in my heart.

Knowing that bitterness is striving in my life, He sent a brother in Christ to write an entry with so many scriptures that touched my heart so much with God's overflowing love and mercy. It's like having God telling me, "I'm here, my child; always here to comfort you, waiting for you to muster that courage to cry out to me and tell me things that you are struggling to carry on your own."

It brought me to tears when I gave a point when this brother in Christ sent me the link, trying to edit it so that there's no loopholes for the netizens to attack. As he shared the root for the entry, I suggested something call hurt: the contradiction between wanting to forgive but struggling to forgive because of hurt and the wholeheartedness of forgiveness.

He managed to complete it and posted it in facebook by the time I was awake. After reading it again and spotting the differences from the first article, I found the new part and eventually cried. God has always been there to comfort! I shunned away because I thought that I could just let time heal. I did not know that such bitterness hinders my relationship with God and other people (I've been trying to run away from fellowship, even my family. In the midst of these, I tried to out a strong front indicating that nothing truly has happened. I even did briefed QT; unable to comprehend or practice lovingkindness. Slowly, prayer becomes a routine and you find it hard to even pray for someone because you cannot even pray for yourself. It feels like everything internally has crumbled, leaving an external shell with nothing inside. The corrupted spiritual being is left with nothing except the choice of rebuilding it again.

No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it. (1 Corinthians 10:13 NIV)

Thank God for His escape route for me.