Just now mummy asked about contributing to the family about $200 (should she quit her job). I don't know why at first my heart dropped when mummy asked. Was it because I still have other things going on or is it because my income isn't stable?
I hesitated. I DID! I'm so ashamed of myself right now. Anyway, I told her yes, but after I clear whatever commitments I need to do.
Frankly speaking, $200 isn't tough. I can give $300 on good months of teaching. :) Having said that, I can't do mission trips anymore unless I've saved enough for one. Of course, I'll commence my saving plans with POSB soon. On December or January I guess. It'll be good because I was so worried that once I've repaid my debts, I have no motivation to save or work. (That's just so me) I'm self-driven, but I need something to drive me. Thank God that He provided that drive, knowing my character so, so well.
That also push me to put more faith on God to provide for my family, another way to guide my family to God. Even if they don't see God's goodness right now, I pray that my life will reflect well (even though it's pretty flawed all the time).
I don't need much actually. I'm surviving on less than $500 per month. I just remembered someone owe me money. sigh. I'm sure I won't want to lend anyone money if I cannot afford to. Anyway, I did not agree to lend. It was supposed to share something bought and the payment was dragged for about 2 months. Now I need it to pay for a lot of things. Just don't share/lend/whatever if I cannot afford to do it. Period.
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