Physically exhausting?

I'm so thankful and grateful for today. Spent time with a sister in Christ regarding the discipleship for mission trip, and also talk about any other that are God-related. I must say that I learnt a lot today!

Apart from learning, I'm trying to apply to the building relationship with the family in Christ, so that I can be encouraging and comforting at all times. I'm trying to relate as much as I can. Mainly because if you don't do so, you wouldn't feel the same for yourself.

That's what I've been noticing throughout my walk with Christ thus far. I realized that I'm so full of emotions, but I find it hard to display them (not to the emo type though. Self-control, display only interesting and positive emotions). I need to be happy in Christ! I am happy in Christ but I'm trying to portray that happiness without boasting about my belief in Christ. It should be how much Christ has been making me happy.

My sis is preparing to go overseas now so I have the whole room to myself soon. Actually, not that anything has changed la. Just that if I sleep talk or whatsoever I wouldn't affect anyone. :P oh, and I can pray aloud without thinking that someone will just enter the room.

Anyway, I have a student whose daddy hit her so hard because she gotten just pass for her SA2 for both maths and eng. I'm disappointed but the girl's confidence was so traumatized that she just looked like she's going to cry again because of the tremendous pressure. I recounted that my parents never resort to such things as their words had always been encouraging even though I failed miserably. Now I'm wondering what kind of world are we living? It's like, even though kids are bundle of joy, they are brought here to suffer whatever their parents impose. I guess there are times I'm trying too hard to live up to my parents expectations (especially my dad) until my rubber band snapped and I start to do something that hurt them.

Thank God for His divine intervention and made me feel wanted. Otherwise, I'll still be a little girl trying to follow people's ideas (be it good or bad) just to fit in.