The power of grace

On the 1st of Feb, I went for my precept class. After three long months, I'm finally back again with all the aunties and surprisingly, an uncle. One of the aunties also brought her house guest, someone from the states. Not bad, it's quite a rare sight to see two men in the room.

Anyway, the whole purpose is not about talking about men. I don't want to sound desperate for a courtship either. The main point is to talk about what I've learnt from the class, which almost made me cry.

We had a discussion on the book of Colossians and its a really short book. I've realized that there are gems in this book and I believe everyone feels the same. Four chapters tell so much; we marveled on the inductive study on this book as we slowly understand what is going on in the book. No doubt, everyone thought it is hard. I can barely finish my homework because I don't know what the precept was asking, or even understand the plain text (it looked just like a normal letter to me).

After a really beautifully prepared Lou Hei (with all the ingredients beautifully related to God's mercy and grace), we went back for class. I must say, aunties are always meticulous and I really appreciate it. I even talked to a newcomer: she approached me and not otherwise (I'm always passive in engaging unless I've grown to be really close to that person).

Anyway, I was surprised to see Kay Arthur instead of her son. I now understand why people like her: things she says are quite spot-on. When she was talking about our beliefs and how it shows God's grace in vain, I almost cried. That's exactly how I felt at that moment: the feeling of unworthiness, feeling that I can never do things right and many more. That part of the video just kept playing in my mind, as if to remind me that God's grace is always available no matter how well I fare because it can never be His standard; BUT His grace is always there for me to continue working hard in wanting nothing.

After not talking to God after every painful lesson with students, I finally talked casually to God again. Indeed, I know God is omnipotent, but I've always find my problems small as compared to the rest. This verse came to my mind when I was thinking of God's grace: He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. (Psalm 23:2, 3 KJV) It's what He'll do, and I should believe that He WILL do it. This is faith: Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. (Hebrews 11:1 KJV)

Let's keep these verses in mind, that through the grace of God, He'll make us the person He wants us to be.