She said there's no particular reason; just wish to catch up and added that she treats me as her close friend. I know I was a bit blunt, but I told her I don't consider us as friends now.
Flashbacks came and I remember having a couple of my christian friends telling me she's not a good friend to be with. I can still remember how I comforted her and brought her home after a major breakup of hers, for fearing that she'll do something stupid. I spent two to three days with her (thankfully it was the holidays) and did all I could to make her feel better.
However, when mine came she wasn't anywhere near me, much less to comfort or even care.
Now she's telling me she wants to care. Now she's telling me it's hard to find friend like me and even if I truly want to put the friendship past me, she'll not do so. In my mind was flooding with these words: "早知今日何必当初？" Besides, my fellowship with her will not be as godly as other believers. I don't consider her as a true friend and like many other so-called friends I've had, I sincerely think it's time to move on.
When I said that I've put the friendship behind me, I advised her to do the same. I'm surprised by the calmness in my heart. How peaceful can one be? For me, I just say it because I would want her to cherish all that she has and not bother about the past anymore; just like how I handle it.
Instead, she said that she'll be waiting for me to call her, etc. This actually made up my mind for changing my phone number. I wanted to sms her about my decision in changing number, but decided not to because she doesn't need to know. Hence, as usual, I played mute and ignored her last sms.
Why I've decided to move on...
Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their work:
If one falls down,
his friend can help him up.
But pity the man who falls
and has no one to help him up!
because they have a good return for their work:
If one falls down,
his friend can help him up.
But pity the man who falls
and has no one to help him up!
Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm.
But how can one keep warm alone?
Though one may be overpowered,
two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.
But how can one keep warm alone?
Though one may be overpowered,
two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.
Ecclesiasticus 4:9-12
Rejoice with them that do rejoice, and weep with them that weep.
Rom 12:15
I'm thankful for such friends. Though I seldom cry, I know a few have seen it and comforted me.
Why I think keeping the friendship will not help at all...
Practise not evil against thy friend, when he hath confidence in thee.
Proverbs 3:29
He that walketh with the wise, shall be wise: a friend of fools shall become like to them.
Proverbs 13:20
An unjust man allureth his friend: and leadeth him into a way that is not good.
Proverbs 16:29
He that concealeth a transgression, seeketh friendships: he that repeateth it again, separateth friends.
Proverbs 17:9
Forsake not an old friend, for the new will not be like to him.
Ecclesiasticus 9:14
As iron sharpens iron, so a friend sharpens a friend.
Proverbs 27:17
These are the things that I have experienced or is not beneficial as friends. Sadly, all I can do now is for them to be witnessed and be a true christian.
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