God is always with me

I thank God for so many things. For good friends, for family, for a good career, for studies and many more.

I had a great time this weekend: Jun's church musical on Good Friday, fellowship with those who stayed over in church, had a wonderful sunrise service (thank God for answering my prayer on glorious day. It couldn't be better). By main service, I couldn't pull myself together. I left halfway to teach just to realised that I was kind of sleep walking. I cancelled my tuition that day because I couod not provide good teaching and I do not even have strength to move. As a result, I rested till 10pm.

When I woke up, I began digging for food after washing up. Thank God my family left dinner for me. Mum made steam whole chicken and I happily finish 3/4 of the chicken as my last meal was 9am. I proceeded with my last quiz and prayed for guidance, wisdom and knowledge. I remember wanting to submit my answers but there is a soft prompting to check. No harm checking, I thought, and changed a few answers after checking. Then another soft prompt telling me everything is ok, and I hit my submit button.

To my surprise, I scored 80%! I have calculated, I only need 20% to pass, and more marks means higher grades. I am left with two weeks and it is still hopeful for me. Tomorrow will be the kickoff of my assignment and I would certainly hope that I perform much better this time.

There are some things that were mentioned during my stay in church. As I reflect upon it, it made me understand things much more. I can be marriage-ready, but I am not relationship-ready. I am not ready to share my life with someone who does not know how to cherish, protect and honour it.

I love my life now, the life God has pushed me to even though I entered it unwillingly. This life verse of mine has been ringing,

"For I know the plans I have for you," says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.                                                      Jeremiah 29:11

I will still pray for a servant of God as a helpmate. Helpmate till the end of our lives, to love, honor, protect and cherish, to populate the heavens and to bring glory to God through our union. God knows my heart and I am hopeful in Him who gives the best he thinks is for me.