Grace, something I received undeservingly.

Yesterday was the results day for me. I actually remembered the wrong day, thinking 21st June 2012 was Friday. Anyway, it does not matter because no matter how late they were, it is still good news to me!

I had spent two years trying to clear this module. My first three semesters were based on borderline quizzes and it did not help much when it comes to trying to even pass with my assignments. I was stuck, torn between my commitment to my students vs my academic results. Although sometimes students did well, the bad results did not make me feel any better. Even at one time I tried to focus on the assignments, I was stuck and know not what to do. I ended up losing precious time to work on the assignment.

My greatest relief came when I was asked to retake everything about the module. I retook the basic PMIT (Project Management Information Technology), PMIT and MMPIT (Managing Multiple Project Information Techonology). I wasn't sure why, but this time I had this resolution to do well, with God as part of it. I think it was because I kept God out until I needed help at the last minute, treating Him as my last resort. I was convicted that it was wrong, and this time round, I should do something different.

I was so glad when my tutor loudly proclaimed that he is a christian and had worked in churches managing IT projects for them full-time. Never had I feel so glad to have him as my tutor! Although he lives in the states, there was once he came to Singapore but I never went to see him. His teaching method did help me to understand this module a lot better.

Anyway, I supposed the revised teaching method and the simplified questions helped me so much and it is something I was not in control of. All I did was pray, attend leasons, and did my best, and I have to leave out my good friends and sister- and brother-in-Christ's proposal event to work on assignment. Two weeks is not long to work on the questions posed. I did not do my weekly homework like I was supposed to. However, God did reminded me of what I know and how I can work to get the desired answer. I know the frequent ideas popping out of my head to help me does not come from me, but from God. As you can see by how I messed up the date of my result, you will know that I am not that clear with what I have and what I do not have to help me in my assignment.

Now I am just wondering if I am those people who will get the certificate from IIL (International Institute of Learning) for getting more than 70 in my overall grade. B is not a clear idea of where I stand. If it is a C I will know I will not get it. Oh well, it is all to my Almighty God, for He controls everything and plans for everything and everyone. Imagine, if I were to pass with my borderline quizzes, my result will not be this fantastic, and I would not even get a B even if I do try hard with the chim questions posed for three semesters.

Looking back, I stood in awe for this verse that I had put up as the verse of one of the months: "For I know the plans I have for you, " says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." -Jeremiah 29:11