Yesterday after my last post I was supposed to rest. However, I did not. I ended up reading the whole of boy meets girl through speed reading method. Crazy. I spent about an hour finishing that book and ended up crying. The last part caught me by surprise - something I thought I couldn't have, or don't dare to ask God for it due to my circumstance. Father just gently told me through the book that it's ok to desire marriage even in my situation. At the end of it, I should have faith that He'll provide. The time don't matter but the faith does.
That's when I broke down to tears. I prayed for forgiveness for not focusing on Him but on my circumstance, and that's when I sincerely prayed for a godly mate. I know I've not seen that man yet. It could be someone nearby or far away from me now, but the desire to be involved in a godly courtship just entice me. I found that I no longer look at it with fear and dreadfulness, but with enthusiasm and anticipation. I do love my God, who is always patient and gentle with me. I do pray that I can place whatever grace He has given me to someone who needs it, so that I can glorify Him.
Anyway, today's precept is interesting. Intriguing questions and it links to Matthew 1-5. Guess I'll compile it all and probably send it to my best guy friend for his church publishing.
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