Maybe I'm feeling down, maybe I just feel that I'm not good enough. I enjoy serving, but I do feel that there are a lot of people who can do a thousand times better than me but it still boils down to "why me?"
Seriously, I'm not good at graphics and stuff, notice board is a mess now, and media is not moving, JP I'm still stiff all over, don't know what to plan for sunday school camp activities. I really don't know what I'm good at. I just feel the need to serve and I can't seem to get enough of it. At one side of me just become really zealous about serving, while another side of me just feels like running away from it because I've not done well. Seriously, does God mind? What am I lacking? Why such feelings? Am I serving for the wrong purpose? Is it for self? Or is it for God?
No offense here, but when one of the brother in Christ kinda "designed" his own announcement, I don't feel that good. There are times people wants to send the email on my behalf but I was thinking, if so, then what's the use of asking me to be publicity? Everyone can just access the email and send and I'm not exactly needed. That would definitely make my life much better and easier, I thought. Maybe I can serve in another sub-committee.
Maybe next year I should just stop being a publicity committee. probably a behind-the-scene person. Ahhhhh.....I'll come back on that soon. I'm tired of thinking.
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