What an eventful Sunday

Today, as usual, I'm seated alone. Message is about love and sadness. What a contrast right? Yea, it is; especially on people who doesn't want to admit they have pride.

Behold, the third time I am ready to come to you; and I will not be burdensome to you: for I seek not yours, but you: for the children ought not to lay up for the parents, but the parents for the children. And I will very gladly spend and be spent for you; though the more abundantly I love you, the less I be loved. But be it so, I did not burden you: nevertheless, being crafty, I caught you with guile. Did I make a gain of you by any of them whom I sent unto you? I desired Titus, and with him I sent a brother. Did Titus make a gain of you? walked we not in the same spirit? walked we not in the same steps? Again, think ye that we excuse ourselves unto you? we speak before God in Christ: but we do all things, dearly beloved, for your edifying. For I fear, lest, when I come, I shall not find you such as I would, and that I shall be found unto you such as ye would not: lest there be debates, envyings, wraths, strifes, backbitings, whisperings, swellings, tumults: And lest, when I come again, my God will humble me among you, and that I shall bewail many which have sinned already, and have not repented of the uncleanness and fornication and lasciviousness which they have committed. (2 Corinthians 12:14-21 KJV)

Oh man, I love the bible app. The selection of many verses helps so much! Anyway, the message is about the Corinth church.

Corinth is like the center of Greece, and like a heart of sexual transgressions. They committed sexual sins in front of their greek gods in the temple. The apostle Paul knew their culture, but out came these beautiful words of love from him on sadness if they are tempted to go back to their old ways.

Apostle Paul mentioned that he doesn't want anything from anyone; he just want to be a blessing to them (v14). Even parents want to care for them, brothers an sisters want to care for each other. In verse 15 he mentioned that the more he loves, the less he be loved. This really comforts me. This is like an essential spiritual walk. Then he questioned what did Titus ask from them? Did he cheat or take advantage of them? He mentioned that whatever they do, they always put spiritual growth as top priority. Most people live as though they are Christians but turns out they are not practicing Christian life when spot checks are conducted(v20) and when he visits them again, God will humble him to not judge, but be sad that they are back to their sins (v21).

Praise the Lord for His word. Sometimes I do wonder how nice it would be when my family receives Christ. These verses tells me how heavy-laden I'll be when they receive Christ but still go back to their sinful habits. As much as I am concerned, God's timing is perfect. Rather than be bitter about my family, I earnestly seek His help and timing to reach out to my family, and not be hastily seek them.

Anyway, I went to borrow some DVDs from the church library about science and God. I'm so excited! Mainly because I have no money to buy them but church actually bought them and let us borrow it! Just when I was happily leaving the counter for Sunday school camp prayer meeting, "he" was just right in front of me with another lady from YA blocking my left. I'm left with no choice but to look at him and smile. He smiled back at me. I can guarantee my heart skipped a beat, so immediately I looked down and walked speedily for my meeting. I'm not sure if he smiled because the sermon was asking us to forgive and smile to those who hurt us instead of forgive them bitterly. It's like do the talk you know? Anyway, one thing is certain: the love I thought is gone is still here.

What I can't believe is I'm behaving like this close brother in Christ. What is happening?! I guess I'll just KIV this. If there a Haitian who can just wipe my memory for a while (watched too much Heroes), I think would be much better. :D I don't like to think so much now.

Man, my work in media ministry is not moving. I'll ask "his" daddy, who is the elder in charged, about the proposal raised.

Whatever it is, I leave it to God. He knows what I want, even in future. I don't even know what I want. I just live everyday as if it's my last and live it fruitfully in the spiritual way.