Retrospected

it's coming back again.

the hurt, the love, everything in respect of it.

It's like an old film playing over and over again in my mind. Though faded, the feelings still there.

Instinctively, the anesthesia will kick in to numb it. As if a person taking sleeping pills whenever he cannot sleep.

I'm tired of it; but I have to keep trying till the pain is gone - for God's mercy to see me through; to keep praying for us - for pain 'relief' and grow towards godliness. That's all I can do because I've tried everything and it doesn't work.

I need to go relax on my own on Sundays after the meetings and stuff. I guess it's getting unbearable with couples around. :(

I'm cool. Just need to rest and enjoy good life God has given me.

{=.=}