{-.-}==>very very sian. (sian means disinterested)
Time flies. My 21st birthday seems like yesterday. Those friends, life and values in life just make me want to pat myself on the back - at least you've grown, Joelle.
As much as I would like to disregard that number (and many more counting numbers to come), I still have to say that it's God's grace that I've survived thus far.
Just came back from a dinner insisted by my family. I did not want to celebrate it. During dinner, my dad (as usual) was nagging at why we are still unattached, and talk about none of my cousin from his side of the family is married.
Well, at least one is engaged, another few are planning their big day.
For me, I try not to get annoyed by it (I used to do that probably because I was anxious about it too). Today I'm just so tired I don't feel like having any emotions. I've even removed my birthday from Facebook so that no one will greet. Not that I dislike my age, I start to become really really low profile. I guess I'm kind of influenced by Jesus through Matthew. When being challenged, He is able to counterattack those Pharisees and Sadducees, and when He is compassionate, He did the miracles with humility and did not fight back when people accused Him. When challenged by the word of God we must be able to defend; we help with humility and seek no glory to ourselves. People will be grateful and praise your God. That's what I want to be.
Before my parents prepare to sleep, they passed me an angbao. Although there's no mien xian prepared by mummy this year (I love the way she cooks it), at least my whole family, including my sister, sits down and have dinner with me.
Happy Birthday, Joelle! At least it's not so bad after all.
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