What have I done?

Thank God for such a beautiful birthday celebration. It's a pity I couldn't stay for her special item. Everyone did so much for our birthday girl! (correction: birthday lady) ;)

I'm so thankful for such a wonderful celebration with the YAs. It has certainly made yesterday a joyous day. Now I'm wondering how to celebrate my mum's birthday which is this Sat.

I dont know why but two students cried yesterday and today. I was so shocked because it's been such a long time since my student cried. I panicked of course, and keep prompting about why they cry. Usually I can't get any answers, so I shared my story with them.

As a EM3 student, I told them how I hated studying and refused to submit to my tuition teacher and homework. In her desperation, my mum decided to leave us alone. I was the witty one who lead my sister to oppose tuition teachers. As you know, it brought her down badly.

If I have a chance to prevent my students from going to foundational class, I will. Ive been there, done that and I certainly would not want them to go through the painful things I went through, no matter what it is. However, I guess because of that I've placed quite a lot of stress on them, thus causing them to cry.

I guess I dread teaching my P5 because she's not improving and neither is she that cooperative in lessons. I've somewhat given up I guess. I've racked my brains to teach her English and she couldn't get it into her head. I'm at wit's end actually. I better see what other alternatives I can get from the brother in Christ on assessment books.

Anyway, I quite love my current bible verse calendar. I think it's a great way to memorise verses. Too bad can't upload it. I'll upload it when I'm home. Gotta plan for three weeks worth of homework for my students. It's gonna be a painful marking days when I get back.

updated:

This is the lock-screen in my iPhone. Looks cool huh? I love the verse. It's like a reminder to myself, prompting God to search me and "QC" me, so that as a creation of His, I'm pleasing Him.

When I got home, I gotten another surprise from mummy. She bought Samsung PL170 for both my sis and me. Crazy it seems, she actually picked my fav colour: purple. As much as I'm thankful and grateful for her gift (my Olympus is half-dead with battery and video problems and I actually prayed for one camera), I thought she could've save the money and keep it for Lucius. I did not know how much it is, but it seems costly because I actually went only to look at its specs and the price for it is about US$200. Thank God for His providence. I pray that my mummy will be happy after leaving the supermarket, and hopefully find a fixed-morning shift job.

I also pray for wisdom and knowledge in teaching my going-to-be-P6 student plus a new student tomorrow. Life is ever changing.

Right now, the marriage issue keep coming. I know inside me I would really like to have a soulmate, but I find myself running away from it. Literally run away from it. I guess I'm too comfortable as an individual. It's weird to have someone with me anyway. :)