About teaching

I had a cheerful heart while teaching. It's been so long since I've felt so enthusiastic about teaching. My breakup has turned me into a hot-tempered person. I'm so thankful that I've changed and becoming patient again.

I'm also thankful that I've completely given up that hateful spirit within me. Yea, it's a shame how much one can go through those alone without being completely understood. My gratitude extends to God who does, and answering my prayer as I pleaded with Him to let me leave those painful past. It just feel different and incredible. I no longer thinks about the past and more about the future - those bright and cheerful future.

Even as I'm totally financially down, I find myself thanking God that at least I have enough to pay for my liabilities. Even though I'm down to the last penny, I'm thankful for the free meals from camp and birthday party, and enough money to give for tithes as I scrimp here and there to make ends meet. It's a whole new different gratitude to me: from thanking God for what I have, to what I do not have and other means that God blessed me. Maybe I should call it 'conscious-in-blessings'? Rather than asking God for what He could've given me, I thank God for the alternatives He provided. Not quite what I've prayed for but better than nothing. =x

Instead of complaining to God about my students' learning ability, I thank God for allowing me to demonstrate patience and lovingkindness. I've gotten my whole perspective turned 180degrees; something I did not prepare.

I'm still looking forward to new surprises as a whole new person. I pray that such gratitude will not cease.