Discipleship?

"You are truly a disciple when your mind is clear and your heart is pure." - Max Lucado

I was just wondering how true is that. If it is true, then I can never be a disciple and those who are undergoing discipleship with habits they need to battle spiritually may have to give up discipleship. Is that what it is? I doubt so.

Perhaps I misunderstood his intention because it came from his daily devotionals. Perhaps it wasn't clear in the first place. Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps...

There's so many things running in my mind. So much that my head is going to explode. I need someone to talk to, but who is free now?

I need to talk about my studies plan, my work plan, my servanthood plan,my teaching plan, my family plan, my future plan, my...whatever.

Maybe I think too much about it. I have this constant prompting: "Joelle, take a few important things first. The rest will fall shortly after."

But I don't know which is more important. In another words, I'm confused about my whole life.

Other than being a good christian, is there something else I should do? Anything else I can do? Why do I feel so lost? Is this the kind of discipleship Jesus would like to see? A fretful one, maybe not.

This is so frustrating.