Time flies; flies really fast. Now is Friday already. I can recollect when I was working in the government sector, when I would grumble about when the week is going to end. Here I am, thinking what I've achieved so far. Nothing much actually. I did not fellowship much because I was scared of wasting my available resources, and yet at the same time I regret not doing it because my life is going down to the unhealthy way.
I realized I sleep more than I should. I realized that I find it hard to wake up. I had enough sleep but don't understand why I just can't wake up. Then I went to research. It is linked to so many things! Thyroid disorder (family history), depression (my history), my blood disorder (family history) and my not-so-healthy eyes (since birth). Just pray that it's none of them but fatigue.
As I keep looking back to whatever past I had, I've realized how dark my life was. It's brighter now, all thanks to God. He was willing to include me into His kingdom, and allow me to dwell in it, all because He is gracious. I went to research about how I know if I am ready for courtship and found out that once I know the pros and cons of courtship, then I am ready. I know the pros and cons, but I still don't feel that I am ready. Probably not ready to take the pros and cons of it. :)
Although I did not consciously praise God everyday for sustaining my life thus far, I'm still thankful and grateful that I have lived, as a single, by not slogging the hell out of my life, by not living my life bitterly, but to live each day, knowing that I am doing my best to please my Father in heaven. It is true that when your eyes are on God is when things move exceptionally fast.
it's how wonderful life can be with Christ. As I wait patiently for His perfect plan on my life, I should have the faith to tell myself that the gift of life God created specially for me will come.
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