I am thrilled

Thank God for Sister Karina who sent me about five emails about teaching. I am sure to archive it into my hotmail for future reference. It got me thinking a lot and reminding myself that I was once hose rebellious students who gave teachers problems everyday.

I have to say, it kind of reignite my passion for teaching, my compassion towards teachers and students and how much more I have to learn and it motivates me to learn (instead of discouraging me). I know the ugly part of teaching because I was part of it.

Anyway, it was a great insight on the school life. Sister Karina helped introduce me to one of the contract teachers in her school to talk to me about the contractual procedures and what to expect during that one year.

I guess it is very "me" to be sure of things. After all, it is God's sovereign plan that would help me. I was reminded subconsciously about how much it will change me spiritually, mentally and emotionally, and how much my learning curve will be.

I do have factors to consider. I want to know if my resolve is half-hearted (I do not want to jeopardise the students, the school and my path few years down the road). I want to know that even if the road gets tough, I am still motivated to do my best.

It is like, in the beginning, no one will think that they will fail. It is after many things that people come to understand that they may fail. For me, I want to know that I may fail as a teacher. With that knowledge on hand, I take steps to realise whether it is more to the negative or positive side, all with the grace of God.

Isaiah 26:4

Trust ye in the LORD for ever:  for in the LORD JEHOVAH is everlasting strength.

For now, all I can do is trust in the Lord for strength to be a teacher, and see if this is His plan for me.